I just got back from a run here at our final destination in Cascade, Idaho. We’re staying at an outdoor school where the scenery & people are unique & amazing.
I’ve been grappling with stressful situations the last few weeks & have really had a hard time figuring out the next step to regain my footing. I felt a bit lost & not myself. In fact, I found myself questioning everything in my life & if it was the right thing for me.
As the rain washed over me this morning, I struggled with the question that’s been in front of me. “What do I need to feel wholly myself again?” As my feet hit the ground repetitively, I slowly found my answer… Or at least a place to start. I need to be enough for myself. Blame social media or just my social nature, but I feel an incessant need to share my experiences with others. Through Tumblr, Instagram, Facebook, texting & talking; I have an underlying fear of my life going by unnoticed. I would like to matter. To someone. Anyone. So I document, share, spill my guts out to the universe in the hopes that someone will see these amazing things I love & share that moment with me.
The realization I had today was that I am enough. My experiences are mine & no one will see them like I do. I don’t need to share every detail with everyone. There will be moments that will be shared & that will make them that much more powerful for me, but my solitary moments are just as special. The sunsets that make my heart swell, the mountains that humble & inspire me… these moments are mine to cherish.
So in an effort to break my habit of sharing all the details, I’m ending this blog. I may be back sometime, but for now I think this is the step I will take to be enough for myself. Just me. I’ve really enjoyed the community I’ve found here. The friends I’ve made. You people are inspiring. If you want to keep in touch, please do. Meaghanlogic at gmail. Xo