I just got back from a run here at our final destination in Cascade, Idaho. We’re staying at an outdoor school where the scenery & people are unique & amazing.

I’ve been grappling with stressful situations the last few weeks & have really had a hard time figuring out the next step to regain my footing. I felt a bit lost & not myself. In fact, I found myself questioning everything in my life & if it was the right thing for me.

As the rain washed over me this morning, I struggled with the question that’s been in front of me. “What do I need to feel wholly myself again?” As my feet hit the ground repetitively, I slowly found my answer… Or at least a place to start. I need to be enough for myself. Blame social media or just my social nature, but I feel an incessant need to share my experiences with others. Through Tumblr, Instagram, Facebook, texting & talking; I have an underlying fear of my life going by unnoticed. I would like to matter. To someone. Anyone. So I document, share, spill my guts out to the universe in the hopes that someone will see these amazing things I love & share that moment with me.

The realization I had today was that I am enough. My experiences are mine & no one will see them like I do. I don’t need to share every detail with everyone. There will be moments that will be shared & that will make them that much more powerful for me, but my solitary moments are just as special. The sunsets that make my heart swell, the mountains that humble & inspire me… these moments are mine to cherish.

So in an effort to break my habit of sharing all the details, I’m ending this blog. I may be back sometime, but for now I think this is the step I will take to be enough for myself. Just me. I’ve really enjoyed the community I’ve found here. The friends I’ve made. You people are inspiring. If you want to keep in touch, please do. Meaghanlogic at gmail. Xo

Today was amazing. We travelled from Joseph up into the Big Sheep Creek area to track wolves. The love I have for that piece of country is so big. It was so awesome looking for tracks, talking geology (look up the Eagle Caps, so amazing!), digging up yampah roots to snack on, and reminiscing about days on the fire crew.

Now we’re in McCall, ID… Going even further back into my history as a nomad. As I drove from one place to the next, I felt as though I was stitching my past lives together with the present. It’s inspiring, overwhelming, nostalgic… I find myself wishing I could talk to someone about how wild this feels, but I get blank looks at best & am left with a plethora of ideas, feelings & dilemmas on what the heck to do with this strange experience.

Life has been intense lately. I feel full of questions with no answers & no clarity in several situations. This, I suppose, leaves me open to all possibilities. It’s never been hard for me to let go of things in the past. Im usually the one cutting ties & rolling along. This is new for me…

Singin duets with Joe just like the old days. Same bar, same songs, same drinks. Just a handful of years later. The bartender remembered me… I think I’m proud. ;)

Back at my old stomping grounds from the fire crew days… Where my karaoke obsession got started. BACK AT THE SOURCE! (at The Hydrant Bar & Grill)

Walla Walla to Enterprise… This storm is intense & awesome! Lightning, huge raindrops & tumbleweeds, oh my!

Climbing at Vantage!

On the road.

Tats. Margs.
#postspringbreak013 #roadtrip (at El Sombrero)